i secretly love taxi drivers who knows when to shut up and be silent.

Bittersweet

im beginning to realise that its after the drinking and partying, but yet a sober self of yours laying in a taxi, chasing the raindrops past midnight

you take a drive on somebody else's car and the outside is pouring..

that feeling.. is inexplicable.

all memories come rushing back like an unstoppable pressure.
it only works when you are sober and the rest is dead drunk.

that was a year ago...

after yesterday night late at the stadium, i took a taxi.. drove past a familiar route..
that feeling came back once again.

but i guess the only difference is..

im not that girl anymore.

so much have changed ..oh boy..

im not joking

My world

everything in this world is a sheer bliss of turquoise, flora and all fauna in violet luminous lights.

just a moment or presence in such an ethereal dimension will lift my spirits.

only those who knows , know.

1:52-2:52

never ending

fck im really damn damn drained. i cant be bothered with anything else. yesterday i had training at ten in the morning till 12 in the afternoon do project and we chiong till 2 am.. and just one more day we can get it printed and done. tonight its till 2 am again and then off to finish up gaming and cruise.


oh and on top of that, i sat on the floor last night using xq's laptop for a close prox of 5 hours and my back now is having this almighty piercing pain. tmrow i still have street jazz ,hiphop and modern training.
i need to learn to manage my time well, afterall i lead a double life :<

:( what's going on with me.

i swear it's

so haywired. @#$@$#

Yuletide

"Fill a cup to its brim and it is easily spilled..
if it's already full, what else can you provide for..

窗外的天气
就像是 你多变的表情
下雨了 雨陪我哭泣
看不清 我也不想看清
离开你 我安静的抽离
不忍揭晓的剧情
我的泪流在心里 学会放弃
听雨的声音 一滴滴清晰
你的呼吸象雨滴渗入我的爱里
真希望雨能下不停
让想念继续 让爱变透明
我爱上给我勇气的 Rainie love
窗外的雨滴 一滴滴累积
久违的雨滴 一滴滴累积
屋内的湿气象储存爱你的记忆
真希望 雨能下不停
雨爱的秘密 能一直延续
我相信 我将会看到
彩虹的美丽
冷冷的空气 很窒息
我无法呼吸
一万颗雨滴的距离
很彻底
让爱消失无息









hahas
that voice is not mine. D:
hehe

i realised that my eyes tell a thousand words, this was captured by a friend. I cant even remember what we were saying at all, but i bet i truly felt what she was saying. which explains why i was so gleeful.

speaking of which,
baby

happy 3rd month :>

avatar with you was avatarish.
<3

"sometimes living a double life can be life threatening yet so thrilling.."

i love to appreciate silence when its golden.
i love to listen more than to speak
i love to look out at the skies after rushing a 2000 words report and realised what i've missed out all day
i love the adrenaline rush when im on stage
i love to chase after raindrops pelting down the window panes.
i love it when i dont have to say anything and people understand and get it on rare occasions.
i love it when im around genuine people
i love to see daddy holding their daughter's hands when they cross roads
i love my memories, the good and bad ones
i love it how momentarily my mind teleports me to another world secretly on my own during train rides, one that no one knows or can comprehend when i explain.
i love it when i remember to spray perfume before i head out.


but
im beginning to realise that my love for it is fading ever since the workload is piling and the more i try to get understanding and cooperation from anything, anyone around me, the less i receive.
i finally understand what's it like to feel helpless in trying to voice out. i've been missing out on life's simple pleasures.. i hope it rains tonight..

i need that nostalgia.

when i sneeze, i can feel every part of my body aching.. This is bad. Forgot to stretch. And most importantly mommy is leaving tomorrow for HK. The one i was suppose to embark on but because i cant leave my huge responsibilities behind, i figured sacrifices are calling from all walls like crawling vamps trying to feed on my blood.

i really dont know whats wrong with me these days.. i only know something is wrong with my body. Need to go check it out, even my heartbeat is faster than a normal person should be beating.

Can't fight the adrenaline rush nor the pace of my heart. :> hahas

ok back to my oh so lovely projects. This sem is some kick buster. 7-9 Jan is open house, waack, street j and Hiphop. My left fourth rib bone, back arch shoulder bones, inner thigh muscle, triceps all hurts like fcking mad. Hence, i try my best not to sneeze.

till then, i wont be blogging as much.Zero Social Life's whats going on.

ps: i like the fact that i have understanding friends.
they are those that wont leave you in times when you cant meet them because of school work.
i have in total cancelled 12 dates.
FTW

and christmas is in a week's time. I dont feel any of it at all. Guess shing at NY will be seeing some awesome snow. I wanna see snow too! Maybe i will go tissuefy my room now.

:(


*these projs are driving me crazeh

"There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength and determination of a woman who follows her own path, who isn’t thrown off by obstacles along the way. There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences who knows she can fall, pick herself up, and go on."

I've been kidnapped by time.. umpteen times..
about time to release me..